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Direct edition
Buy directly through Lulu.
Paperback and hardcover editions, ordered from the printer without passing through a retail storefront.
Order direct Best route for buying the physical book directly.PLATE 08 · THE OBJECT
Buy the book
Three physical routes into the same story.
Direct, retail, or signed. The memoir remains stubbornly itself.
BEFORE YOU PURCHASE A 204-PAGE EMOTIONAL AMBUSH
What, precisely, are you buying?
This is a memoir about late-diagnosed autism, masking, emotional abuse, psychiatric collapse, grief, survival, and the deeply inconvenient discovery that being alive is not the same thing as having a life.
It includes family silence, religious disappointment, several continents, one devastating love story, one German Shepherd operating without meaningful oversight, and the bureaucratic miracle of remaining alive long enough to fill out another intake form.
It is sad. It is funny. It is occasionally furious. It contains no five-step healing plan because suffering, rudely, declined to organize itself into a webinar.
THE PHYSICAL OBJECT
Ten copies. One witness. Several routes into the same story.
The book is not a mockup here. It has weight, edges, shipping labels, and a German Shepherd declining to participate in inventory control.
Choose how the book reaches you.
Three routes. One book. No ceremonial confusion required.
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Retail edition
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Compare available formats and storefronts through the international retail index.
View retailers Availability, delivery, and returns vary by seller.LIMITED
SIGNED
SIGNED
Private order insert · No. III
A copy signed for you.
Signed copies are personal, finite, and counted toward the Road to 2,000 campaign.
BOOK RECORD
What arrives.
A 204-page first edition from Sentinel House Press. Prices and delivery windows for printer and retailer orders appear at checkout.
- Formats
- Paperback · Hardcover · eBook
- Paperback ISBN
- 979-8-218-76118-9
- Hardcover ISBN
- 979-8-218-75064-0
- eBook ISBN
- 979-8-218-75486-0
- Signed copy
- $19.99 USD · limited availability
- Campaign
- Every copy moves the shared $6,000 goal forward. Signed copies also add a direct $1 on top.
It does not just explain masking. It shows the cost.Rachel K. · Educator
I did not expect to survive this year. This book met me where I was and did not let go.Anonymous readerRead the full reader archive →
PURCHASE LEDGER
What arrives, and what happens next.
Three routes. One object. The story begins again in another room.
- Signed copies
- Signed by Christopher and shipped through Square checkout.
- Retail orders
- Availability, shipping, and returns are handled by the selected retailer.
- Campaign impact
- Direct signed-copy purchases help move the Road to 2,000 forward.
- Need help?
- Use the seller support route, or contact Christopher for signed-copy issues.
03 · AFTER PURCHASE
Every copy moves the story into another life.
The memoir leaves the shelf and becomes evidence that survival can be spoken aloud.
